The Mirror Effect

The mind is a powerful thing. It can play major tricks on a person and it can also mess with how a person views the world.

For example, I have lost or gotten rid of 65 lbs in the past year.  Apparently, based on what everyone tells me, the weigh loss is very visible. Also according to my clothes I have lost the weight.  But when I see current pictures of myself, I see the 265 lbs me and not the me that everyone see.  I wonder why?

It is very demoralizing and undermines my determination to lose more.  It is a struggle everyday and I can't look at a picture of myself because I am left with the question"why am I doing this?"

So I have resorted to tricking my mind, not looking at pictures and a hell of a lot of self talk!  This week is has worked...but at the end it is an hourly struggle.

School Motto

At last count I have been to 16 schools.  That was when I was 14...there were more schools after that.  Let's call my new school QE...and that school had a motto:

"To be the best that I can be. Being what I am. With the gifts that I have got."

So simple yet so real and right.

In this crazy busy world that we live in, we forget the simple. The right. The true.  We focus on the bullshit. The newest fad. The name brand clothes, shoes, etc. We forget that we are all that we need. 

Inside each of us is the potential to be great.  I don't mean the hero type of great.  I mean the great to effect someone else life in a positive manner.  I think that my old school motto teaches that very thing.

Look at Oprah...I watched her last show today. She totally embodies that motto.  She have shown that it can be done.  Look at all the people she has touched...big and small.  People who watch her show and don't even realise that she planted a seed. 

So I am going to put that motto into dailly use....

TO BE THE BEST THAT I CAN BE!  BEING WHAT I AM! WITH THE GIFTS THAT I HAVE GOT.

May 24 2011

I wonder why ones mind has so much power over ones actions?  I mean really here I am trying to do this diet thing and its like my mind is on a different page.  I get up, look in the mirror and say to my reflection "Right! Here we go!  Day 1 on of the diet! You know U want this!  You know u can do this!  Its only 30-40 lbs!  LET'S DO IT!"  Then 8 hours later I am reaching for the wine gums or some other non diet food!

I mean really!  Talk about the spirit being willing but the flesh being very very weak   That or the mind just refuses to play along!

I have been doing that the last few days and I finally had it yesterday and threw the whole mess out the window to the Universe and gave my lack of staying power up.  So far I have managed to hold it together for 2 days..yippee!  I really want this but it is really hard some days to give up the security of the "fat suit".  Its safe behind it and I know where I stand in the world. 

I have gotten to the point where this layer of the "fat suit"  is getting to the inner person that I see myself as.  So the question now is am I brave enough to take of the next layer?